I don't always say the right things, and I offend people because of my anger.
Sometimes I can't control myself.
I'm screwed up, I can't stand the thought of me being in the shadows, a background noise, a spectator. I get scared, then I start doing stupid things. Things that make people look lowly upon me as a person.
It's always out of anger, blinding anger, and I don't know what I'm doing until it's too late. When people begin to hate me.
Because of what I've done I've practically ruined my reputation on this site.
Okay, you have not offended anyone (as far as I know) with your previous posts. In fact, you have spoken for many of us who have had the same exact thoughts as you but have only dared to drop a few subtle hints here and there. I respect you for speaking out about this feeling of uselessness that everyone gets once in a while. Not just here, but pretty much everwhere. Ther have been those instances where I post something here and a mind-blowing range of 0-1 people comment, and then the topic is left in the dark, forgotten achives of pointless topics. So hopefully, by the last sentance, you don't mean that you're leaving LUO. Please read this comment and know that someone, whereever the hell I am, supports you and agrees about the unfairness about those unexpeectable times where you are unnoticed.
Now, no need to go down in flames like that. All you need to do is heed my suggestions that I mentioned in my reply to your previous post (although I`ve since edited my own message to help wipe the past away).
Hey, my temper`s gotten me into hot water before too, and my experiences have been even worse than yours. Just ask any veteran posters around here; they can tell you about the altercations I`ve had in the past because of my fiery spirit (not over a lack of attention, however). And hey, I`d like to get noticed too, but I have to wait until my stories are finished, and then perhaps the praise will start provided my works are worth their dataspace.
To be honest, I still think you`re overreacting, but now in a way that makes me sympathize a little for you. You don`t have to go running off like a coward. I`m the only person who really got on your case, and even then I was trying to help, not hurt (not to mention I was up past 3:00 AM, which makes me a little cranky).
Like before, you just need to start by calming down and participating in the conversations around here. After that, the attention you seek will arrive in it`s own time.
Aaw. Don't be sad. You're not a coward. As Zadavia Spirit said; you've spoken for many of us who thought the same but you were the only one to drop a fews hints.
I'm not sure what's going on but everyone has one of those bad days. Everyone feels like that now and again. Just don't think about it for too long or it could take over your life.
Jetsir, we all support individuality here on this board, so offering your opinion is not frowned upon, however bold or passive it may be. There is no need to be sad about what you think or what you posted on this forum. Just stay on the boards; Eat, Drink, Be Merry!
You didn't ruin your reputation I assure you. And this is coming from one of those who got to read the other thread before you took it off.
Why didn't I comment there? 'Cause Crossfire before me said pretty much what I thought, so why repeating him? This may be one of the reasons why not everyone answers your threads: if someone already said everything they thought, then maybe they don't feel like taking their time to say the same things. I personally consider it to be a waste of time and generally just move on (there've been exceptions but they're rare and I probably had a lot of time on my hands when I did, something that I currently don't have).
You can't expect to be noticed if you don't do anything other than making threads or posting art. That's...just not how you get yourself known even though it seems to be the most obvious thing to do. You need to get in touch with people privately. I became really close with Skifox and Jurassic drak over time, but that's because we're keeping in touch almost daily OUTSIDE of this board.
But don't feel bad for your outbrust on that other topic. We all need to voice the things that bother us sometimes, it's healthy for the spirit. :)
I will continue to post on this site, but I do not believe I will be conversing much. I am rather embarassed by my actions.
Hey, you think that was embarassing? Try answering the door to receive a delivery with a piece of sandwich in your right cheek while wearing a muscle-T. The embarassment only kicked in afterward when my mother pointed it out.
And before that, during this same week, I was daydreaming while eating lunch, swinging a corner of sandwich around (hm...is there a recurring pattern here?) and suddenly, it flew out of my hand and hit the deck. A young adult like me should know better!
By the way, in case you`re wondering what kind of sandwich I was eating, it`s simply peanut butter between two wheat bread slices (occasionally one slice folded in two in case I feel like having a half sandwich).
Aaw. Don't be sad. You're not a coward. As Zadavia Spirit said; you've spoken for many of us who thought the same but you were the only one to drop a fews hints.
