Blah. I think I offended a student in my school. I feel sad and guilty about it. I think it was because I made a racist remark, but that memory is really fuzzy (I wish my memory was less fuzzy), so I can't tell if it's something I dreamed/daydreamed/imagined.
Read some posts or look at the things you put up for screenshots. XD That always makes me laugh. Sometimes I work on fanfics. That helps. My characters have a deeper plot when I'm depressed.
Same here. I take my depression and force it onto my characters. XD They don't mind...but my creative drive comes after me with all sorts of weapons if I'm being cliche.
For example: I think I'll make Raven an emo teenager.
King Friday the XIV: -thinks- NON-CREATIVITY ALERT! -comes after me with a blow-up baseball bat-
When I'm upset or angry, I hide in my room and talk to my hamster, Teddy. Then, I go get a granola bar and share it with Teddy. You could tell when I'm upset or angry if you saw me, cause I become very quiet and I kinda hang around in the background untill something snaps me out of it it. I think I have problems with talking to people, like my parents. But I've always had at least 3 people I could talk to, Teddy(my hammy), Mellow(my horse) or Hannah(my best friend). Things got really confusing for me last year when my best friend got mad at me. But, thankfully we got that sorted out.
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Well for me being guy I dont get depressed as any of you do but when ever I get angry or saddned by something I find comfort in watching Aqua Teen Hunger Force epsiodes on the internet I even have the season 4 box set
Perhpas oddity just needs to laugh? Here's a joke: What's a ghost's favorite ice cream? Answer: I scream! He! He! Oh poo, it's not that funny i know...Sorry, i'm not particularly good with jokes.
Black Oracle wrote: Perhpas oddity just needs to laugh? Here's a joke: What's a ghost's favorite ice cream? Answer: I scream! He! He! Oh poo, it's not that funny i know...Sorry, i'm not particularly good with jokes.
I think that joke would be perfect for Ace!
Ace: -reads post- hmmm.... -turns and starts to walk away- me: Hey! where are you going?
Ace: to get ice cream. me: -slaps forhead and groans-
Oh how i do hate tantruming kids! *Stuffs a carrot stick into Ace's mouth.* There! Suck on that instead! It's more healthier than ice cream! *Ace sucks on carrot stick contently.*
Well, really, I should be feeling a bit guilty for telling off a 'friend', but she kinda deserved it. XP But I've been an emotional train wreck lately. I just dunno why! X(
I wonder if just -talking- to Ada makes me depressed. Weird. It should make me feel guilty, if anything. XD
Well Oddity, this might sound weird and disgusting and only girls might need to read this (so if you're a guy, don't read).
Have you just finished your 'period' or 'monthly'? If you have, then that must be why. Along with a few other things that may have caused some problems and you suddenly cry for no reason. I usually do that everytime I've finished my monthly. But then that's a good excuse to eat more choclate and sweets !
I sometimes feel down and it all turns out to be the effects of the 'monthly troubles'. If it is that issue, then you'll be also getting pimples.
If it's not then perhaps it is hormone disbalance. Or you're psychologically sensitive and whatever happens to you leaves a deeper impact than it does for other people.
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the_oddity wrote: Well, really, I should be feeling a bit guilty for telling off a 'friend', but she kinda deserved it. XP But I've been an emotional train wreck lately. I just dunno why! X(
I wonder if just -talking- to Ada makes me depressed. Weird. It should make me feel guilty, if anything. XD
Sounds like you need some time to replenish yourself emotionally a little. You may be finding it draining to talk to other people when you have little reserves of emotional energy left in you. Go for a refreshing walk in some natural setting perhaps, just find some time to be on your own with your thoughts and relax! As soon as you feel you've 'recharged' yourself mentally, then you might be in a better state to be talking to others again.
-flops- Seeing as I'm a teenager who's trying to scrabble the best of the last day of her spring break while trying to deflect a weird girl who calls me more than most people do and has a crush on on of my best friends who I may or may not be crushing on as well that lives in a city, it's going to be hard to find a natural setting. XD
I'd recharge, but I can't find the outlet. -holds up plug-
I tried to hold this all in today... but... this may sound really really dumb but...
It was the finals of a football match and throughout the season, apart from the manager's daughter, I was the only player not to miss a single match. And I turned up at training on Friday and the manager said and I quote: "All those who turned up at training today, will definately be on the pitch in the finals". So I was pleased because I made the effort and I felt this would be a good thing.
So throughout Friday and Saturday, I was so excited. Then, match day turned up. I was at the changing rooms at about an hour too early to be exact and waited until we were allowed to get changed. One of the good players let us down but that didn't matter to me. I wanted to warm upon the pitch immediately after I got changed. When he told the positions, he said I'd start off sub. I was okay. Normally, I'd start off as sub nearly every game. But there was 5 subs on the bench and only 3 players were allowed to be swapped.
It wasn't until 2nd half that the manager started swapping players. I sat there patiently, waiting for my name to be called out. Two had already been swapped and I was begging in my mind for him to say my name. I made this effort to help get the team into the final. I wanted to man mark that number 2 girl that I always manage to piss off everytime I man mark her. I wanted to be able to her from scoring that one single goal. The manager turned around and opened his mouth to say a name.
"Vicky. Get warmed up. You're going on right back."
I sat there frozen. I didn't burst into tears until Ange came to the bench and said: "That's not fair. She shouldn't go on there". Vicky isn't nasty or a bully or anything like that. She's a nice girl. I just burst into tears. I tried not to show it to the others but they soon noticed. I didn't want too much attention. I didn't want to show them that I was a spoilt brat. Especially in front of my manager. I didn't want him to think that I was being spoilt or an attention seeker. But it hurt me so much to find that all that effort I put into playing and helping the team get to the finals was just a waste of time. I feel like such an ungrateful bitch that I am. I want to do things for people yes. But I also want some form of praise or recognition. A "well done" or "that was great" would have done.
But... it was all for nothing. I'm not even sure if I am that good at football. Well, I'm not exactly the best player in the world. But I do try hard. Even with my stupid asperger's syndrome, I still make an effort. A lot more effort than some other people I know. I still try and support other people, even if I'm down myself.
And you know what? I cried when Kingy offered me a piece of chocolate cake. Her piece. I already had a piece and she gave me another. I am such an ungrateful bitch! My parents and older sister drive me to football every week so I'd turn up on time without fail and it was all for nothing. I'm sorry for everything to everyone that gave up their time and money, just to help selfish old me! I am the most selfish person in the world. Selfish! Selfish! Selfish! I am so ungrateful, you wouldn't believe it!
I want to thank those who have been there for me and who supported me. I never would have made it without anyone. Including you guys. Thank you so much for helping me become who I am. I never knew who I was until Twilightgirl showed me this site. So I thank her too for helping me finding myself. I really appreciate you just being there for me. Thank you.
And by the way, we lost 1-0 just to let you know what the score was.
Oh Akira Akira, my dear Akira. *Hugs Akira.* It sounds like you had your heart into this football match. And it's good that you are so motivated about something, but even though many people are so into their hobbies and sports, something that often seems to be overlooked is the fact that we need to maintain a certain what i call healthy 'emotional distancing' from the hobbies that we love. The reason for this is to prevent us from suffering major disappointment on the occasions when things don't go the way we would like. We need to be able to be objective in our desires sometimes, to be able to take a step back from them and see bigger pictures. We also need to be able to handle dissappointment in life, because it most certainly is it part of it, and we must be able to pick ourselves up again after dissappointment, have a strong will to persevere. Don't wallow for too long in the events of this football match Akira, that'll only be detrimental to you. Take heart and and get on with your life. Continue to do your best in football, your efforts surely will pay off someday! People are not blind, they can see determination and effort!
Thanks for helping me cheer up and give great advice guys.
Hugs everyone here.
Yeah. I'm a little better than I was yesterday. I'm just taking things in my stride as they go along. Although I had a few flashbacks and nightmares about what went on, I'm still managing.
I really want to thank you guys for supporting me and others here. I feel really good whenever I go on here. I just wish we'd all meet up with each other in real life. Not being the stalker type here but I wish it was possible.
Aww! We loves you too Akira! *Mass group hug ensues.*
Akira: ACCKK! Too...tight!
Time will heal the negative experience you had with this football match Akira. What you've got to do is learn and move on from it. Continue channelling your energies in positve ways in life and that will surely pay off!
And sometimes i think it'd be nice if we could all meet each other in person too Akira. But at least the most important parts of personality can be conveyed through text right? Tho' actually, i'm a UKer too y'know. Where was it in England that you come from again? You don't have answer that if you don't want to.
[Hugs Akira] It's awful for you to go through this. Unfortunately, most of us go through injustices throughout life and sadly, this won't be your last.
I don't want to discourage you from enjoying life, far from it: life has a lot of positive sides, but then again there will also be something to dissapoint you. Heck, I'm harsh with the wording and I'm sure you still feel the effects of the match.
But try to cheer up and keep your head up - getting back up is important, not the falling.
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Thanks guys. I really appreciate you cheering me up.
And Black Oracle, I often like to give clues to people who ask me questions about myself. I'll give you a clue: I'm a Brit too and I used to be in the same class as Lil' Chris ( the little !)
Black Oracle wrote: Lil' Chris? *Blinks stupidly.* I don't know. Maybe another clue?
Okay. Another clue: Lil' Chris' real name is Chris Hardman and the band "The Darkness" comes from there too with our very own Justin Hawkins. You know now?
Lowestoft, Suffolk? I had to actually look that up! My music knowledge is shamefully limited.
And i express my condolences to the senior student you are referring to oddity. Memorials aren't joyful ceremonies, but they are a way of giving thanks to the life of one.
"...cared about his hair a little too much." (laughter)
I didn't feel like laughing
Ya i know how you felt.
I felt the same way at my dad's funeral 3 years ago. It still hurts alot, more around my birthday then any other time (he died 5 days before my b-day and was buried 2 days after my b-day), and i didnt feel like laughing at any of the jokes that were said. To make me feel better, me and my best friend read a poem in front of everyone. My dad was pretty much her dad since her mom left him when she was 1.
Ever have a dream that your woken up by your mom screaming that your dad is dead? Well thats what happened. It was the worst expierence in my life. Since my best friend had slept over the night he died, it was up to me and her to keep my little sister and brother away from the paramedics and not see the strecher my dad was on or see him be taken away in the ambulance.
the_oddity wrote: :( Don't think about it! Think about...happy thoughts! Uh...fanfiction! Ace? Duck! Duck always cheers me up! Do you need a teddy? -offers King Friday-
Friday: :3 -stretches out arms for a hug-
me: -smiles- Thanx. -takes King Friday and gives him a hug. gives him back to oddity-
Ace: Ya kid. Don't feel so down. Here. -streches out arms and gives me a hug- me: Thanx Ace. -hugs back-