Oh, no. The lyrics for my songs are what's Jacovie's working on. XD Of course, I insisted that if he makes me into a 'random Japanese pop star', then I make a song of my own.
...I never wanted to be a 'random Japanese pop star'. I'm not even Japanese (I think).
Oh, no. The lyrics for my songs are what's Jacovie's working on. XD Of course, I insisted that if he makes me into a 'random Japanese pop star', then I make a song of my own.
...I never wanted to be a 'random Japanese pop star'. I'm not even Japanese (I think).
I'm sure he just wants to make you look like Utada Hikaru so he can make sweet sweet love to you. Mwahaha. *shot and mauled*
I’m always lost. Whether it be in the school ‘maze’, where a hundred classrooms are located, or in my own mind, when thoughts cloud my vision, I’m still wandering aimlessly.
I can’t find the ticket office. Dang. They said they were open during fourth. They lied. I guess I’ll have to ask Ms. Lewis when I can pay the club fees later.
I’m feeling emo. Dang. I hate feeling emo. It’s too cliché. I hate being cliché.
Remembering.
I’m always remembering. Whether it be my experiences, good and bad, or television shows, I’m always remembering something.
I remember being an idiot in front of the whole Academic Center. Dang. I never should have tried to run for secretary. I would have lost anyway. It’s more a popularity contest than anything else.
Confused.
I’m always confused. Whether it be a complex joke my friends make, or being lost in the plot of a badly-written fanfiction, I’m always confused about something.
I’m confused about why I’m writing this. Dang. I need to study for finals tomorrow. I hate finals. I want to write.
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Non-fiction. -gasp.- It headed off the rail I wanted it to be on, but this is good too.
Then again, who am I kidding? Everything I write sucks.
Oh, no. The lyrics for my songs are what's Jacovie's working on. XD Of course, I insisted that if he makes me into a 'random Japanese pop star', then I make a song of my own.
...I never wanted to be a 'random Japanese pop star'. I'm not even Japanese (I think).
I'm sure he just wants to make you look like Utada Hikaru so he can make sweet sweet love to you. Mwahaha. *shot and mauled*
Did you actually write these when you were lost in thought or when you were just daydreaming? I do little chibi sketches when I'm lost in thought. Some of them are pretty cool for someone who appeared to be braindead.
I titled this one! Though...it's more of a fanfiction than anything.
Wile's Lament v.2
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I knew she was like this.
I knew she was only a fangirl with over eighty obsessions, I being only one.
I knew she wouldn't stick to my side forever.
So why do I feel like this?
Why, when she hugged Goofy and Demyx, did I feel so angry?
Why, when the others tried to rescue her from Oogie, did I stop them?
Why, when she hugged me, did I want her to never let go?
Why?
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"You could make a good poet or writer or something."
I turned, startled, shoving my writing under an open textbook. "Jessica!"
She smiled mischieviously. "Wile," she replied, nodding.
"Wh-what are you doing here?" I demanded.
"What does it matter?" she responded, shrugging. She poofed out a chair next to mine and sat down.
"I'd appreciate it if you stay out of my room," I growled, pointing to the door.
"Suit yourself - I only wanted to help." Jessica pouted, standing up and walking to the door. I sighed.
"Wait."
She turned, already at the doorway. "Hmm?"
"Did-did you read this?" I asked, extracting the paper from under the history book.
"Mmyep." She sat down again. "Like I said, you could be a good writer."
"Uh...thanks...I guess..."
"You really care about her, huh?" she asked softly. I nodded, not knowing what to say.
"I-I don't know...why..." I put my head down on the desk that Jessica's 'father' provided. "I just...I don't know..."
"Well, writing emo pieces isn't going to get you anywhere," the teenager said cheerfully. I glared at her.
"Yeah, you're real helpful," I snapped, crumpling up my writing and tossing it at the wall. It bounced off and hit the floor. I got up, picked it off the ground and smoothed it out. As I reread it, I realized how stupid it sounded, and I threw it into the wastebasket. When I finally looked back, I could see that Jessica seemed apologetic.
"I'm sorry," she said. Part of me just wanted her to get out of my room. The other wanted to sit and cry on her shoulder.
The two compromised. I sat back down and put my head in my hands, ignoring her.
"Haven't you considered..." Jessica began.
"Considered what? Telling her how I 'actually feel'?"
"As cheesy and cliche as it is, yes."
"I'm not going to," I said firmly, still not looking at her.
"You can't rely on me and Jacovie to keep dropping hints for you," Jessica said, a faint note of irritation in her voice. "Why? she added, her tone softening.
I put my head in my arms, allowing my vision to darken. "It's not like she's going to take me seriously." I heard her chair scrape the floor, followed by a tapping sound, as if slippers were walking across a tiled floor.
"Baker, tea, two cups, please," she called. I didn't hear any reply. "How would you know if she didn't take you seriously?" she asked.
"I just do." I felt tears falling from my eyes, and I secretly felt glad I hid my face. "And she wouldn't care. Why would she? I'm just another obsession to her."
"Your tea, miss." I heard the quiet tinkle of china.
"Thank you, Baker." The tinkling continued, and I heard a thump on the table.
"You're welcome, miss." Soft teddy bear feet padded down the hall.
"No sugar," I mumbled, remembering the disasterous occasion when Jacovie slipped sugar into my tea.
"I know. Here."
I lifted my head. Jessica was holding out a white-and-blue porcelain cup. I accepted it with a word of thanks. A tear dropped and caused ripples in the brown liquid as I stared at it.
"Don't you love her?" Jessica said, blowing off her tea. I looked up sharply.
"Why do you ask?" I said, dodging the question.
"Do you, or don't you?" she said, raising her eyebrows. "It really comes down to that..."
"I..." I looked back at my tea and took a sip. It was warm. "Yeah...I do."
"Then tell her," said Jessica. "Even if she doesn't take you seriously. It's better to just have an answer...than to have you feelings bottled up...'cause it's kinda painful." I glanced her. Her expression was unreadable, and she was sipping her tea.
"How do you know this?" I asked.
"I'm...I've had practive understanding people," she replied, avoiding eye contact. I smiled.
"You could be a psychologist when you grow up," I said, drinking my tea.
"Thanks." Jessica looked at me slyly. "Sooo..."
"'Sooo'?"
"Whatcha waiting for? Go get 'er, casanova," she said, winking. I chuckled and put my cup down.
"Thanks," I said, grabbing a brown coat and matching hat from the hooks on the wall behind the door.
"For what?" she laughed. She winked again. I grinned and set off, my mind set.
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Look at the title. I can't believe I actually thought of that - though it seems like 'Jack's Lament', but whatever.
Can you believe it? I made a sequel to the above writing. A sequel.
I suck.
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Wile's Lament part 2 v1
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“Come on, come on,” Jessica called, halfway up the road already. I ran to catch up with her and finally reached the corner.
“You’re slow – and considering how fast I run, that’s sayin’ something,” she commented, smirking. I glared at her.
“Oh, shush. Why are we back at your house?” I asked, looking up at the tall, plain house. It always seemed different – and by that, I mean it changed. It never looked the same way twice.
“I invited Racheal here,” she said, winking at me. I gulped.
“Wh-why? Not that I care,” I added hastily.
“Well, since you totally chickened out on me, I decided that if you’re not going to get her, I’ll get her for you.” Jessica folded her arms and grinned. I growled in frustration.
“Look, I said I’d tell her when I’m ready,” I said irritably, pulling her black Jack Skellington cap down, covering her eyes.
“And my definition of ‘ready’ is when you’ve wussed out four times after talking with me,” she retorted, lifting the cap back up. “Seriously, why are you so…so…er…whazzat word…”
“For wha-” I smacked my forehead and cursed. Jessica laughed. “Forget it. Never mind. When is Racheal coming?”
“Hiya!”
I jerked around and spotted Racheal standing right behind me. “Racheal!”
“The one and only,” she said jokingly, bowing.
“And now I’ll make ‘im ‘fess up! Go on,” Jessica whispered, pushing me forward.
“Wha?! You never said-” I stammered.
“GO ON,” she repeated, a dangerous gleam in her eyes. I gulped and stumbled towards Racheal as Jessica pushed me again. Racheal looked at me innocently. I felt a bead of cold sweat run down my temple.
“Urk…ummm…nyeerr…” I felt my throat contracting. More cold sweat.
“Schmeh?”
Jessica pouted. “Oh, you big meanie.”
“I didn’t do anything!” Racheal defended herself, not noticing that the remark was directed towards me. I fidgeted a little.
“Could you not stand here, Jess? It’s making me nervous,” I said, fumbling with my heads. What should I say? I thought, panicked.
Jessica took two steps backwards. She winked at me, then looked at her home, whistling.
“Thank you. Umm…” I desperately tried to figure out something to say.
“Out with it,” said Racheal simply.
“Ireallylikeyou. Likelove. Really,” I squeaked out.
“Wha…?” Racheal looked at me weirdly.
I didn’t know what to say.
I didn’t know what to do.
So I ran.
I heard Jessica call after me, but I didn’t care. I ran for some time – I lost track. I turned a few corners as well. By the time I slowed down, it started to rain. I stopped in front of a gray house. I looked up at it as rain pelted down, getting my fur wet. I simply stared, too tired to do much else. My head was spinning. “And what are you doing out in the rain?”
I snapped back to attention and looked down, stumbling backwards, dizzy. Jessica was standing in front of me, her teddy bear butler Baker behind her, holding two umbrellas, one shielding himself, the other folded and dry.
“You’ll catch pneumonia unless you get inside and get dry,” she said, taking my hand and pulling me towards the house. Baker opened the second umbrella and held it over my head. I took it gratefully. Jessica pulled me into the house, and as Baker padded to the living room to start a fire, I realized how cold I was. I didn’t have time to dwell on it, however, as Jessica guided me to the bathroom and handed me a towel.
“What’s this for?” I asked, my sense not in place.
“For drying, silly,” Jessica laughed, placing it over my head.
“Oh. I knew that,” I said, flushing.
“Great – so use it!” she said, walking away. “I’ll ask Baker to make you some tea.”
“Thanks,” I called, drying my fur. I quickly finished getting dry and headed to the living room. I looked through the doorway. Bugs was sitting in a large armchair, half-moon glasses perched on his nose. He was reading the Bible.
“I never knew you had glasses,” I noted.
“I do – so now you know,” he replied sarcastically. “You ran out, did ya?” he added, closing the Bible and looking up at me.
“Jessica told you, then?” I asked glumly, sitting down next to the fire.
“Yep.” Jessica came in, a tray of tea in hand. “Bugs would’ve found out anyway – psychic links aren’t to hard to control,” she added, pouring out the hot drink in a porcelain cup and handing it to me.
“Oh.” That was all I said as I took the tea.
“’Oh’, indeed. After all the trouble I went through, that’s all you got to say?” Jessica said mockingly.
“Pretty much,” I responded, the smell of jasmine wafting from my cup. “I’m sorry,” I added, looking down.
“For what? It’s no trouble, really,” she said gently, pouring another cup for her conscience. “Well, it is, just not a lot,” she added thoughtfully.
“Gee, thanks,” I said sarcastically.
“You’re welcome,” Jessica said, unaware of my tone. “Can Wile stay longer, Bugs?” she asked. Bugs took his spectacles off and put them on the coffee table.
“Eh. As long as he doesn’t try and eat me,” the rabbit said, winking. I chuckled.
“I think I’ve learned my lesson, thanks,” I said dryly, sipping my tea.
“You know where your room is, right?” Jessica asked, putting her cup down and standing up. “’m going to my room,” she added to Bugs.
“I still remember,” I replied, looking at the fire. “Thank you for letting me stay.”
“As long as you don’t eat me,” Bugs said with a wry chuckle.
Finishing my tea quickly, I bid goodnight to Bugs and Baker, who seemed to be baking muffins. I headed upstairs and opened the door to my room. It was the same as I left it. The history book was still open. I walked to my bed and collapsed upon it. I fell asleep.
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Jessica peeked into the room, a white pillow in the crook of her arm. “Wile?”
A soft snore told her that he was asleep. She tip-toed in and saw the coyote curled up on his bed. She laughed quietly.
“Poor Wile,” she whispered. She pulled the thick quilt over him. Wile groaned and his hand twitched. She tucked the cover around his neck as a mother would do.
“Poor Wile,” she repeated, walking out of his room as quietly as she could.
“Maybe tomorrow,” she murmured, standing at the doorway. She turned back. “Maybe tomorrow.” She looked outside. Bugs is asleep…Baker is too…no one’s going to check in my room, she thought. She grinned and placed her pillow on the floor.
Workin' on the part three - though I'm not sure if I can take it any farther. I have a heck of a lot of stories still waiting, two original stories as well as fanfictions.
I don’t know why exactly why I am writing this. Perhaps I am writing this to vent my extra feelings. Maybe I am writing this so you can read it. I don’t know anymore.
The point is, I’m writing this. And I hope you take me seriously.
And the real point? I love you.
Before you ask – I’m not kidding. At first, I had misgivings… After all, you were a fangirl. I know how you are; you have over eighty obsessions, and that number is still growing. I’m merely one of those. How was I to know if you really did love me? So I kept quiet, unsure of what I really felt.
But eventually, the pain was too much. I held it in for as long as I could, occasionally writing on scraps of spare paper to let it out. That wasn’t enough.
And soon, I was caught. Jessica saw me writing, and she knew of my feelings. She sympathized with me, giving me advice and providing comfort. And then she asked me:
“Do you love her?”
I didn’t know. I don’t think I ever did. Not even now.
But she asked. I had to give an answer.
And I said yes.
It’s like that song I liked.
Sooner or later, love is gonna let 'cha Sooner or later, love is gonna win
Love did get me. But I guess it’s too late.
I guess it’s too late. I guess you don’t care. I guess I came to realize too late, that you don’t care about me, and if you did, not anymore.
I’m sorry I didn’t realize your feelings sooner. I’m sorry I didn’t realize my feelings sooner. I’m sorry for all the times that I brushed you off when you showed me you loved me. I’m sorry for everything bad I’ve done to you. I’m sorry for everything bad I’ve done to the others you liked.
And you know what? I’m sorry I’m even writing this.
Sorry.
Wile
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I reread the letter for the fourth time, still disbelieving. Wile? Wrote this? And tossed it out? I couldn’t help but cry. I wiped away my tears hastily in case Bugs or Baker would come in unexpectedly.
“The bloody coward,” I whispered, stuffing the paper into my pocket. I felt choked up, like when you read a book and someone acts all mushy. Then it gets you all mushy. And I hated that because I’d feel choked up. Like I am now.
“Jessica? Are you done with cleaning Wile’s room yet?” I quickly grabbed the wastebasket and poofed the contents away, moments before my conscience personified opened the door.
“Baker has tea ready,” Bugs said sleepily. “’s past your bedtime.”
“It’s Saturday,” I said, getting up from the floor. “Where’s Wile?”
“Probably at Racheal’s page,” he replied, blinking bemusedly. “Haven’t heard from him since yesterday.”
“Page?”
“House, site, mind, whatever.”
“Ah.” I stretched. “’kay. Well, I’ll just-”
“The internet connection is down.”
“Dang.”
Bugs let out a ‘ha’ before walking down the hall. “Drink your tea and go to sleep.”
“But…” I heard his door click shut. I took out the letter from my pocket and looked at it.
“How can I sleep with this on my mind?” I said quietly.
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And perhaps a sequel to this will come.
I rubbed off on Cheri and now she likes Duck, and she has repaid me by making me like Wile. D:
remote control did you ask for it? no, you don’t need to we share it indeed we do
remote control you have it when I work because you are like that indeed you are
remote control I have it when I play because I am like that indeed I am
remote control who has it now? not I, you know full well I have writer’s block nor you, this is not how you are who? who indeed?
remote control he has it – yes, that would explain it it would explain why I felt like this thank you, indeed
remote control what? Oh, keep it for now what’s wrong? did I mean it? did I, indeed
remote control don’t take it away! it’s not my fault I did mean it! I did, indeed
remote control is it controlling my words? no, these are my own I meant it meant it, indeed
remote control do we really need it? no, perhaps not, not anymore because now I know I do, indeed
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Station 5 / I have lost
I have lost –
pens, pencils, paper
a book, maybe it might have been Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
gym clothes
my fish
interest in Harry Potter the books remain on my shelf
homework not a lot but still
maybe a small bit of my sanity probably not but who can tell
the purpose of writing this
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Station 4 / Names
Names?
Jessica. Plain. Common. Me?
Chu. Regal. Majestic. Me?
Worm. Lowly. Wriggling. Me?
Chu-cookie. Chu-bacca. Chu-Chu, Pikachu. Me?
Jessica. Worm. Pikachu. I think I am an Oddity.
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Station 19 / Freewriting told from someone else's PoV! XD
she asked “why” couldn’t we be together why shouldn’t we be together why aren’t we together
I said “because” you need to tell me because do you really understand because you need to know the truth
she thought “maybe” you’re right maybe I’m wrong maybe all I ever wanted was you
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Station 9 / personifying an item you own
faded, old, dirty, gray imagination in his blood friend
“Homework, now.” bickering voices family
“Must I really?” teenaged response foes
sighing, conceding comprises allies
tricks and treats bonding lovers
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...well? I wants feedback! Is it good or bad?
Bugs and Jacovie: IT'S AWESOME!
Pleeeeease don't say what they just said.
Jacovie: But it is!
Pleeeeease.
Meanwhile, I will work on a novel. That I want to make into a movie. And have WB produce it. Because I want them too. And Disney already has Toy Story. Which was awesome. Or at least the first one.
You do some pretty good poetry there oddity! A few nice concrete metaphors to portray abstract concepts and unusual images come to my mind as i read your poems. I get a sense of your free-flowing conscious thoughts in much of your writing, it's like dipping into your mind for a short while as i read! Very enjoyable! Keep up the creativity!
A tip in poetic writing: 'show, don't tell' your ideas! Let the reader 'see' in their minds what you mean rather than just 'telling' them information directly.
Btw, i actually wrote a poem i entitled "Lost" as well!