Blah. I think I offended a student in my school. I feel sad and guilty about it. I think it was because I made a racist remark, but that memory is really fuzzy (I wish my memory was less fuzzy), so I can't tell if it's something I dreamed/daydreamed/imagined.

...blah.

play vidio games

Read some posts or look at the things you put up for screenshots. XD That always makes me laugh.
Sometimes I work on fanfics. That helps. My characters have a deeper plot when I'm depressed.

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-- Edited by Animefangirl11 at 19:33, 2007-03-22

When I'm upset or angry, I hide in my room and talk to my hamster, Teddy. Then, I go get a granola bar and share it with Teddy. You could tell when I'm upset or angry if you saw me, cause I become very quiet and I kinda hang around in the background untill something snaps me out of it it.
I think I have problems with talking to people, like my parents. But I've always had at least 3 people I could talk to, Teddy(my hammy), Mellow(my horse) or Hannah(my best friend). Things got really confusing for me last year when my best friend got mad at me. But, thankfully we got that sorted out.

What do I do when I'm stressed? That depends really.

• Sometimes when I'm stressed at school I go talk with some special teachers and they try to help out in the situation.
• Sometimes I have a mint and drink water
• I sometimes sit down and do nothing
• Talk with my mom, dad, or sister about it
• Read some comics I like or watch funny videos on YouTube and DailyMotion.
• Oh yeah!! Or talk about it with you guys!!
  
  
  
  

-- Edited by Harukuro at 17:44, 2007-03-23

Requesting emotional help.

What's the problem Oddity?

Black Oracle wrote:

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Perhpas oddity just needs to laugh? Here's a joke: What's a ghost's favorite ice cream? Answer: I scream! He! He! Oh poo, it's not that funny i know...Sorry, i'm not particularly good with jokes.

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I think that joke would be perfect for Ace!

Ace: -reads post- hmmm.... -turns and starts to walk away-
me: Hey! where are you going?

Ace: to get ice cream.
me: -slaps forhead and groans-

Ace: -eyes wide- but... but....
Oracle: No Ice Cream.
Ace: -falls to floor and throws a tantrum-
me: sheesh -looks at Ace in disbelief-

me: -asks Ace- Better now?
Ace: yup!

Depressed for no reason? Can't be. Something's happened. We're all ears if you want to talk about it.

-- Edited by Black Oracle at 18:23, 2007-04-07

Well, really, I should be feeling a bit guilty for telling off a 'friend', but she kinda deserved it. XP But I've been an emotional train wreck lately. I just dunno why! X(

I wonder if just -talking- to Ada makes me depressed. Weird. It should make me feel guilty, if anything. XD

I agree with Akira.

I sometimes feel down and it all turns out to be the effects of the 'monthly troubles'. If it is that issue, then you'll be also getting pimples.

If it's not then perhaps it is hormone disbalance. Or you're psychologically sensitive and whatever happens to you leaves a deeper impact than it does for other people.

-flops- Seeing as I'm a teenager who's trying to scrabble the best of the last day of her spring break while trying to deflect a weird girl who calls me more than most people do and has a crush on on of my best friends who I may or may not be crushing on as well that lives in a city, it's going to be hard to find a natural setting. XD

I'd recharge, but I can't find the outlet. -holds up plug-

-hugs Akira, Lumosnight, Black Oracle- Friends!

I tried to hold this all in today... but... this may sound really really dumb but...

It was the finals of a football match and throughout the season, apart from the manager's daughter, I was the only player not to miss a single match. And I turned up at training on Friday and the manager said and I quote: "All those who turned up at training today, will definately be on the pitch in the finals". So I was pleased because I made the effort and I felt this would be a good thing.

So throughout Friday and Saturday, I was so excited. Then, match day turned up. I was at the changing rooms at about an hour too early to be exact and waited until we were allowed to get changed. One of the good players let us down but that didn't matter to me. I wanted to warm upon the pitch immediately after I got changed. When he told the positions, he said I'd start off sub. I was okay. Normally, I'd start off as sub nearly every game. But there was 5 subs on the bench and only 3 players were allowed to be swapped.

It wasn't until 2nd half that the manager started swapping players. I sat there patiently, waiting for my name to be called out. Two had already been swapped and I was begging in my mind for him to say my name. I made this effort to help get the team into the final. I wanted to man mark that number 2 girl that I always manage to piss off everytime I man mark her. I wanted to be able to her from scoring that one single goal. The manager turned around and opened his mouth to say a name.

"Vicky. Get warmed up. You're going on right back."

I sat there frozen. I didn't burst into tears until Ange came to the bench and said: "That's not fair. She shouldn't go on there". Vicky isn't nasty or a bully or anything like that. She's a nice girl. I just burst into tears. I tried not to show it to the others but they soon noticed. I didn't want too much attention. I didn't want to show them that I was a spoilt brat. Especially in front of my manager. I didn't want him to think that I was being spoilt or an attention seeker. But it hurt me so much to find that all that effort I put into playing and helping the team get to the finals was just a waste of time. I feel like such an ungrateful bitch that I am. I want to do things for people yes. But I also want some form of praise or recognition. A "well done" or "that was great" would have done.

But... it was all for nothing. I'm not even sure if I am that good at football. Well, I'm not exactly the best player in the world. But I do try hard. Even with my stupid asperger's syndrome, I still make an effort. A lot more effort than some other people I know. I still try and support other people, even if I'm down myself.

And you know what? I cried when Kingy offered me a piece of chocolate cake. Her piece. I already had a piece and she gave me another. I am such an ungrateful bitch! My parents and older sister drive me to football every week so I'd turn up on time without fail and it was all for nothing. I'm sorry for everything to everyone that gave up their time and money, just to help selfish old me! I am the most selfish person in the world. Selfish! Selfish! Selfish! I am so ungrateful, you wouldn't believe it!

I want to thank those who have been there for me and who supported me. I never would have made it without anyone. Including you guys. Thank you so much for helping me become who I am. I never knew who I was until Twilightgirl showed me this site. So I thank her too for helping me finding myself. I really appreciate you just being there for me. Thank you.

And by the way, we lost 1-0 just to let you know what the score was.

:( -hugs Akira-

Aww! We loves you too Akira! *Mass group hug ensues.*

Akira: ACCKK! Too...tight!

Time will heal the negative experience you had with this football match Akira. What you've got to do is learn and move on from it. Continue channelling your energies in positve ways in life and that will surely pay off!

And sometimes i think it'd be nice if we could all meet each other in person too Akira. But at least the most important parts of personality can be conveyed through text right? Tho' actually, i'm a UKer too y'know. Where was it in England that you come from again? You don't have answer that if you don't want to.

Thanks guys. I really appreciate you cheering me up.

And Black Oracle, I often like to give clues to people who ask me questions about myself. I'll give you a clue: I'm a Brit too and I used to be in the same class as Lil' Chris ( the little !)

I think you might guess where I come from huh?

We had a memorial for a senior student today.

It didn't help me be happy at all.

Lowestoft, Suffolk? I had to actually look that up! My music knowledge is shamefully limited.

And i express my condolences to the senior student you are referring to oddity. Memorials aren't joyful ceremonies, but they are a way of giving thanks to the life of one.

Laugh? I hope no-one else heard you laughing at the speeches!

Oh i see. Well a little humour can be a good way to remember someone as well.

the_oddity wrote:

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No, everyone laughed.

"...cared about his hair a little too much."
(laughter)

I didn't feel like laughing

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Ya i know how you felt.
 
I felt the same way at my dad's funeral 3 years ago. It still hurts alot, more around my birthday then any other time (he died 5 days before my b-day and was buried 2 days after my b-day), and i didnt feel like laughing at any of the jokes that were said. To make me feel better, me and my best friend read a poem in front of everyone. My dad was pretty much her dad since her mom left him when she was 1.
 
Ever have a dream that your woken up by your mom screaming that your dad is dead? Well thats what happened. It was the worst expierence in my life. Since my best friend had slept over the night he died, it was up to me and her to keep my little sister and brother away from the paramedics and not see the strecher my dad was on or see him be taken away in the ambulance.

man, i just made myself sad thinking about it.